goodbye

how I spent my last night in Malaysia

something that I will definitely miss

the "what if" syndrome

i'm too emotionally attached to certain things.

i can't leave that cuddly pillow behind, because I always have it with me

or that favourite t-shirt, because the worn-out cotton feels nice

or that gigantic black and red pencil case, because my sister sewed that for me

or that white (and permanently stained) bag, because it reminds me about one of my best friends

then there is the what if

what if this happens? at least i have this thing

what if i need this? thank god i bring this thing along

what if i can't find this in Canada? what if this turns out to be handy? what if this what if that

too many "what ifs"

sigh, packing is hard.

90% done with packing, 0% space left. where do I stuff the other 10%?

McFly

one of those all-time feel good sing-along songs :)

Tyson Ritter

old song, old video. but i'm posting this just because i love watching the way Tyson Ritter's mouth and nose move while he sings

Powerful

take a deep inhale

a last look at the surface

hold your breath

push yourself off the board with your toes

plunge head first into the water

are you still holding your breath?

pull your knees closer to your chest

curl yourself into an underwater ball

are you still holding your breath?

open your eyes

feel the ripples on your skin

are you still holding your breath?

unfurl yourself from your fetal position

allow the buoyancy of the water

to carry you up to the surface

allow the air to rush into your crying lungs

and oxygen had never felt so good

wither

Am currently feeling like preserved vegetables; salty and mushy.

Marianas Trench

got a secret?

Mystery Jets

so you think you're in love huh?

fear

Don't be afraid of something foreign just because you are unfamiliar with it.

unfinished business

I can't wait to leave Malaysia. Don't get me wrong, its not that I don't want to see my friends and family again, but I am just so excited to this whole new life in front of me. I want time to fly as fast as it could.

Everyday when I wake up, is it 27th already?

I just want to leave, and leave some questions hanging too. 4 years is a very long time, probably long enough to find the answers.

I don't make promises, promises have expiry dates. 4 years is probably long enough to turn promises into rotten apples.

I don't believe in the word 'forever'. It doesn't last against the test of time, especially 4 years. Nothing lasts 'forever', including 'forever'.

tick...tock...tick...tock...tick...tock

(time is such just an act of crime)

ah-choo!

*sniffles*

pardon me

my nose is like a leaking tap

may I borrow your hanky please? don't worry, i'm H1N1-free

picasa revival

Found some old and new pictures that looked bare and boring. With Picasa, they are given a whole new makeover.

multi-focal and multi-exposure

Streets of Bandung (Indonesia)

Split and shine

Neon traffic light

Am currently loving that software.

lomography

I know I am no professional photographer, I take pics for fun. I've always known about these lomograph cameras existence, but it never occurred to me to actually buy one. However, after browsing through several magazines, I saw more pics taken using this type of camera and I thought, hey, they are pretty cool. Plus they are affordable too. Still in the midst of googling on how to use one, and which type is the best one for me. I WANT ONE!!!!

everything in between

So far, life has taught me that:

1) do your best and god will do the rest. however, god will not help you if you don't help yourself.

2) it is ok to take risks. live on the edge; go ahead and jump if you want to, you won't regret it.

3) in the morning, pretend that today will be a good day. trust me, by the end of that day, it will be a good day.

4) it is ok to be yourself. at least people will either love you or hate you for who you are.

5) make the best out of everything. they don't say "when life gives u lemons you make lemonades" for nothing.

6) when in doubt, LAUGH.

Nomad

Since I will be leaving in 2 weeks time to Canada to continue my studies, I can barely contain the excitement of leaving. The thought of living on my own in a foreign land with loads of new things is something I look forward to. Sure, there will be some hiccups and I don't expect the journey to be a smooth sail, but I can't picture myself in any other way, studying outside Malaysia.

I enjoy traveling. Be it road-trips, plane rides, or boat rides, I can safely say traveling has become a part of me. Credits to both of my parents who introduced me to the world of packing, passports, and planes at the age of one. I was blessed with a mother who used to work for an airline company (cheaper tickets), and a father whose hometown is across the South China Sea (we frequently visit his hometown every Hari Raya/Eid). Plus, both of my parents used to travel overseas for business purposes. Combine the above, and you will have a recipe for a frequent flyer.

People say its the journey that matters, not the destination. I do not disagree with this entirely, as I do look forward to both the journey and the destination. During long journeys, take the opportunity to read up on a good book, immerse yourself in hundreds of songs, and taking pictures (both mental pictures and real pictures) of how the journey is like. Striking up conversations is good too, but I don't really talk that much to others, I'm pretty much lost in my own world.

Have a pleasant flight to Canada!

Immersing myself in the sunrise 

purpose

How I wish I was the wind

Untouchable

Invisible

Soothing

Pleasing

Temperate

Yeah right.

If I was the wind I would end up as El Ainaa, Hurricane Katrina's sister. 

blank

i shall not succumb to boredom. 'uneventful' sounds way more appropriate.

energy

According to a law in physics, energy cannot be destroyed. Have you ever wonder what happens after you die? Sure, I do believe in the spiritual side of heaven, hell, and such, but what happens to the decease's energy? I believe that energy is transformed and transfered to the people around you. Your loved ones embraces your energy. The people who you have touched their lives with gains from your energy. So fix and extend that energy bond. And you know what? This energy cycle goes on and on. 

Go ahead, spread your energy while you still can. You will thank for it once it gets back to you in heaven

RIP Uncle Saif, who finally rested on Friday, July the 31st 2009. My holidays in Kuching will never be the same without you.