of dilemmas, interprets, hints, and such

I find myself listening to this song over and over again

they say the grass is always greener on the other side...

I wish Malaysia has..(as compared to Canada)

- people who actually say 'please' and 'thank you'

- people who actually hold the doors for you, allowing you to pass through first, preventing from your nose being smashed onto the glass.

- better public transport system. There is a reason why I rarely take the bus/train/taxi back in Malaysia.

- less humid weather. say goodbye to body odour.

- better and more open lecturers and teachers. criticise them, they will love you for it.

- more freedom and liberation, while trusting youngsters will use these wisely

- better local products. oh, I will boast to everyone, BUY MALAYSIAN STUFF LAH instead of BUY CANADIAN STUFF EH because its cheaper and better.

- cheaper organic stuff. although I still support GM and hormone-stuffed chicken never tasted any better.

I wish Canada has..(as compared to Malaysia)

- people who actually mean it when they say 'how are you' and 'have a good day'.

- warmer, more friendly people. They have such dry sense of humour. Blame it on the weather.

- better food. Then again, blame it on the weather.

- Therefore, I wish for a more temperate+warmer+humid weather.

- people with better understandings who would accommodate to your needs and obligations so that you can join their activities

- activities that includes everyone. including those who prefer to stay sober and still have fun.

A letter

Dear God,

thank you for allowing me to be here to witness this wonderful change in season

Countless gratitudes,

Ainaa SS

With Love from Edmonton

How's Eid in Canada?

Fun!

Food was good, friends were great. I was in good company for the 1st day of Shawal. The rendang didn't turn out too good, but it wasn't my cooking. I'm not much of a domestic goddess anyways, I did what I could to help. The only thing that's missing? Family (oh and duit raya won't hurt too)

Merry!

Farawahida came all the way from Saskatchewan to join us for Eid Celebration. The more the merrier! Took her shopping at City Centre. Shopping with this girl sangat best! Her principle? when in doubt, BELI! So I ended up 'terbeli' a handbag. Please come again, we MUST go to West Ed Mall for shopping+entertainment.

Not forgetting that crazy random Skype beramai-ramai (I still can't figure out who was really talking and who wasn't)

And the texts and wishes from Toronto people, thank you guys! Missing Malcolm-ku, Julia-ku, Anderson-ku, and Hexen-ku. Speaker-phone calls are awesome.

Oh and kamu, tolong lah jangan tertido depan webcam lagi. hehehe. yes i am talking to you, you know who you are.

Cold!

Windy as hell.

Mental note on outfits on days with weather like this: Baju kurung is definately NOT an option, the darn kain keeps fluttering around like a flag.

Mental note #2: When mat saleh stare at you and you feel so damn proud of your yellow neon national outfit, wish them SELAMAT HARI RAYA. The expression on their faces are priceless :)

Selamat Hari Raya!

With love,

from Edmonton

do u really wanna know?

well you wanna know what's it like?

it wasn't how you said it

chill down your bones

and heart beats faster

etc

it was more like

do I want to hang out with this person?yes

do I feel comfortable talking to this person?yes

do I want to talk to this person again?yes

do I depend pretty much everything on this person?yes

does this person make me feel good?yes

everyday??are you sure??HELL YES

n I ain't goin no where dear

paranoid vs safety

was on the LRT today,heading to Churchill Square. then suddenly someone shouted through the speakers:

THE PERSON WITH THE RED CANISTER!

LEAVE THE LRT IMMEDIATELY

I WILL NOT DRIVE THIS TRAIN UNLESS YOU LEAVE

but the person didn't budge

I WILL CALL SECURITY.

I REPEAT, MAY THE PERSON WITH THE RED CANISTER LEAVE IMMEDIATELY

and the dude ran out

only in Canada eh?

bliss?

Contentment is when you are listening and singing out loud to that song that's forever stuck in your head.

doesn't that feel so good :)

:)

5th Sept - 11.03pm

dah sampai! glad and really appreciate it that you called, even though you were exhausted. was very sweet of you to do that.

you're 3 hours away from me, but at least we are already in the same country again.

things will turn out ok, I promise. hold on.

miss you

summer episode 2

finally, I see rain in Edmonton. No rolling thunder, just plain black sky and malicious winds.
the rain is not even heavy, but stepping out feels like opening the freezer compartment of your fridge.

f-f-f-f-freeezinggggggg!!!

summer

summer so far?

• longer day time (for me) and long party nights (for them)
• the constant smell of coffee (for me) and beer (for them) in the air through out campus
• hot, searing sun which causes sunburn (for me) and tans (for them)
• seeking for shelter from the sun (for me) and lounging in the sun (for them)
• noticing how vivid the colours of the flowers, grass and trees all around (for me and for them)
• looking at the sky and noticing how cloudless it is (only for me)

goodbye 2.0

here's to all the time when I say "hindustan sungguh"

and to the drama queen in you (and me)

not forgetting the late night virtual farming

for the past 3-4 months

how he spent his last night in Malaysia

survival 101

Welcome to today's lecture, SURVIVAL 101. My name is Ainaa, and I will be your instructor. Please turn off all handphones, ipods, etc.

1) Prepare as much as you can before you go.

Pack as early as possible. Prepare your documents beforehand. Anticipate unpredictable situations. Get enough rest and sleep. Most important? TOP UP YOUR HANDPHONE!!!!

2) Do not expect things to be easy.

This is not a holiday. You are not on a cruise ship. Do not expect luxury, or even comfort sometimes. Make the best out of everything. Try to sleep in planes rides, train rides, car rides, etc. Be prepared to feel very exhausted.

3) Be flexible.

Think of yourself as a water. You mould into the container of other people's plan. And as the container change, so do you.

4) Don't be afraid.

Don't be afraid to ask for directions. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Don't be afraid if you are left all alone without the JPA officer. Don't be afraid if your friends are not around. Don't be afraid to make new friends (only when they are sober).

This concludes today's lecture. For other information regarding this course, please log on to beartracks.com.